Wednesday 3:34am....
I hate the game of success that i love so much. I hate it for what it makes me do, you know change associates, change decisions, and change my attitude, i love it for all the same reasons. What's a person to do in this unhealthy, yet gratifying relationship, that takes so much and gives so much in return? I must confess i hate it, but can't shake this love affair i'm having with change at the same moment. I was asked why GO, why do you GO, why do you stay in this relationship with success? The tears, the rejection, the failure, the constant naysayers, why stay in such an abusive situation? I ask myself the same thing on occasions, but i'm quickly reminded that i can't shake the love to be challenged, to not sit on the gigantic couch the masses fill, eating popcorn while watching average on a big screen. I have to know can i be, can i be that dream that Walt Disney said will come for those who believe, can i be the story my grandkids pick up to read smiling with pride, can i be the satisfaction i want so badly to see consistently, can i be the motive in my joy, the contentment in my own life, and become appreciative of me....i entered the game of success with those questions, and it answered me with a resounding "yes you can be, as long as you're in a relationship with me everyday.
